insidebuzz : confessions of a future child star

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Movie Review: "War of the Worlds"

Dakota Fanning, Spielberg, special effects, and the story made it incredible. The ending took that away.

11:58 PM |

Sunday, June 26, 2005

To tub, or not to tub... Wait, what was the question?

Sunday night is running out of time, as I roll down Sunset to the sounds of acoustic Foo. At the light, glancing to my right, I notice them. One dressed as a clown. The other, a bum. I stopped to think which one is playing the part, and which is living it. Probably both. Or neither. Either way, it makes me smile and nod. This is L.A., a city in flux. Ever-changing in its nondescriptability. No two days alike. No two weeks all that dissimilar. Why do I wax poetic on the eve of New Job Week 2? Am I tired from staying up until 5 this morning? Or am I waterlogged from last night's hot tub party?

Good night, clown. Good night, bum. We'll pick up from this scene tomorrow.

11:49 PM |

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Attention Formula One Racing!

Get out of my country, you snide, ignorant, ungrateful bastards. First, you come in here like your shit don't stink. Like you're the only sport that matters. Let me break it down for you: You are lower than soccer. We would rather watch arena football, Olympic beach volleyball, and international curling. America will never care about F1. Second, you embarrass yourselves by bringing 20 cars to Indy and racing only 6, because you can't get your own politics straight. At least hockey had the sense to spare us altogether. Third, your idiot spokesperson, Bernie Ecclestone, is a complete fool. He actually had the nerve to tell Danica Patrick that "women should be all dressed in white like all other domestic appliances." Twice.

Thanks for visiting, F1. Now get out.

9:46 PM |

Monday, June 20, 2005

Gainfully employed

Started the new job today. I'm in charge of the whole production department. It's pretty wild. I never thought I would quit one job, move, and wind up with a much better-paying new job a few months later. It wasn't exactly the plan, but now I can afford to take any class I want, AND pay the bills. I'm fairly exhausted. My last full-time job consisted of me rolling in around Noon to start my day. Here, it's 9AM. This will take some getting used to. But one thing's for sure: I can now afford to make the trip to Boston.

11:30 PM |

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Just when I'm not expecting it...

it kicks me in the gut. Reopening a wound that has already healed over too many times. I just happened to be going through old business cards. I still have every single one she ever gave me. Even the one she made up. It's silly. They're just business cards. No longer valid, or useful by any means. Contact information that will get me, at best, some other random person. Long ago, obsolete. So I tuck them away into the first pocket. Maybe I'm just having a moment because of the soundtrack going through my head. It could be the latest Coldplay single, Fix You. Have you heard it? One of the most beautiful songs I have heard in years. Listen:

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try and fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try and fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from all of my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

6:24 PM |

Friday, June 17, 2005

"Got to have a J-O-B..."

I have a job. Full-time. Excellent money. Benefits. Weekly paycheck. I start Monday. I'm going nuts right now. I can pay my bills, eat, and start taking the classes I want. I plan on auditing workshops right away, that way I know who I want to study with. I love L.A. I should have done this years ago.

Tonight, we drink. Heavily.

1:30 PM |

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Decisions

I had a second interview for a production job yesterday. Great job, great people, great pay. But they want me to guarantee that I'll be there for a year with no auditioning or anything else getting in the way. I don't know that I want to put off acting for that much longer. But, the money would be great, and I could afford to take any classes I wanted. It's a quandary. A conundrum. Every hour my mind swings the other way.

I went to see the movie Crash again last night, and that didn't help. What a brilliant movie. It's the reason I'm here.

Sumbitch.

I have another audition coming up today. It's for a new musical about Mahalia Jackson. Should be fun.

1:26 AM |

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

The curse of Chris Rix

More QB troubles at Florida State, as this year's starting quarterback, Wyatt Sexton, has lost his marbles. Police had to take him away as he proclaimed to be God. Must of got hold of some serious shit at the DMB show. Let this be a vaulable lesson, kids: be careful where you buy your weed.

1:54 PM |

One down

First audition is in the bag. It was strange. I didn't have any lines to read, and nothing to improv. It was almost like an interview. The two guys were more interested to hear about what it's like working at a radio station. "You know, it's about the buzz, and the chicks, the whatever..."

1:50 PM |

Monday, June 13, 2005

First L.A. audition tomorrow

Car commercial. Doesn't sound like there's any reading involved. Those are usually the odd ones. I'll let you know it turns out. This, after I spent another hundred bucks on postcard stamps, and mailing labels and the Ross Report at Samuel French. I could spend days in that store.

11:50 PM |

Now, leave him alone

2:37 PM |

Sunday, June 12, 2005

The earth moved

As today winds down, and I prepare for a new week as an unemployed actor, or whatever, I think back to how the day got started in the first place. My first earthquake in L.A. 8:45 AM. I was so tired that I didn't even open my eyes. Just laid there, thinking "this sucks.. is it over?... is it getting worse?.. I'm hungry" etc. It wasn't scary. Just unsettling. It was actually a quake that originated from Palm Springs. My bed hasn't moved like that in a long time. What a shame.

11:56 PM |

Sweet Lou

There is a Major League baseball team in Tampa Bay called the Devil Rays. Sucking since 1998. Manager Lou Pinella is calling out the ownership for being cheap bastards. I love that guy.

12:58 PM |

Movie Review: "Mr. & Mrs. Smith"

Angelina, Brad, guns, and things that go boom. Worth the $10.

12:54 PM |

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Ow

My left ankle is killing me. Yesterday, I went back to the San Gabriels and went on a 4-hour hike to Echo Mountain, visiting the ruins of the 19-century resort and railroad. It was cool to see, but at the same time, kinda sad. The Echo Mountain House and Mt. Lowe Railway were a major resort destination in the early 1900's, and now it's a pile of rubble. It's weird to stand there in the past and look down on Pasadena and L.A. of today. It's as if you're witnessing the long, slow decay of civilization. The historical markers say it all. There is one that has a picture taken at the opening of the resort in 1893. Everyone is dressed in their best, hats and all. In 2005, it's not at all uncommon to see theatre patrons in shorts, or flip-flops.

At least the hike seemed a little more civilized than events that took place Monday. A group of us went to Universal Bar and Grill on Lankershim to hang out and have a couple of drinks. Apparently, Monday night is Bad Comedy Night. And we were lucky enough to have the table down in front. Have you ever been embarrassed for someone else? It was horrible. The first lady was so bad, everyone stopped paying attention to her, and SHE COMPLAINED ABOUT IT. At one point, the rest of our table started talking to each other... the 'comedian' looked straight at me and said, "I'm just gonna talk to you, 'cause you're the only one paying attention." My face still hurts from faking a smile.

9:26 AM |

Thursday, June 02, 2005

I think I'm pregnant

I pigged out when I got home this afternoon. Maybe it's because I actually had work today. Maybe it's because I skipped lunch. Maybe it's because Tubby realized he hasn't seen the gym since he signed up, and he's not getting in any better shape. I started a 3-day PA job today for this exercise video, which we shoot tomorrow. Today consisted of getting the rental van, picking up the A/V gear, and buying crap like towels and garbage bags. I have a 7am call time tomorrow morning. We're scheduled to wrap by 7pm. Then I take everything back by Saturday. Pretty easy money, actually. Hopefully, I'll be able to get a hike in Saturday afternoon.

Listen to me... I sound like some outdoors-type. Before you know it, I'll be playing sports. Plus, I'm drinking milk. Sooner or later I'll be turning the heads of all your friends.

10:47 PM |

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